CHAPTER FIVE

Healing What Wasn’t Right In My Life At That Point


About an hour after the break up I then realised that Tommy had thought I was talking about him instead of Gregory, and that I really should have been more specific and mentioned Gregory by name and given some context to my reply to Fiona, otherwise this wouldn’t have happened. So I found Tommy on the other side of the playground and explained what had happened, and he understood and agreed to go back out with me again and apologised for the misunderstanding and then kissed me.

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